I posted back in March that I wanted to leave my husband. For me, things hadn't been right for a while - he never supported me enough around the house, with the kids etc. I then made some stupid mistakes - texting someone else for a couple of weeks & also kissing someone on a night out when I was drunk. I know that wasn't acceptable but I also knew that my marriage was over. I've been trying to leave since then (March) but the relationship then became very toxic - daily emotional & verbal abuse from him, keeping me awake at night, plus other things. He just said it was my fault he was like that & because of what I'd done, I felt he was right. The guilt made me stay.
I finally left him two nights ago as I couldn't take it anymore & came to my parent's house. There's other issues going on with him as well. It's just a mess - although his family were supportive at first they've now turned against me. It was to be expected I guess. I'm just really struggling to hold it together - it's like I've been holding in my emotions for about a year now as I couldn't fall apart in front of the kids. I feel broken & can't stop crying. The kids are with me at the moment but we've got to sort out arrangements going forward. He won't speak to me - all communications have to go via his mum or sister.
He's currently playing the victim in all of this - which I fully expected.
I was just wondering if this feeling is normal and does it get better? I could really do with hearing some positive stories right now. Thank you x