I married my husband three years ago and have been together 18 years but it has been a very emotionally and verbally abusive relationship and recently physically. He practically abandoned me last year when I was pregnant and was going to walk out on me when I was seven months pregnant. My mental health took a massive dip and I was admitted into hospital for suicidal ideation. I felt floored and that my world had fallen apart. Since then I have been receiving help and we agreed to try again, but he disclosed to me that he had been texting a client of his but wouldn't tell me who. I eventually found out when I searched through his phone. I was devastated and had begged him to tell me for a month and he refused hence why I searched through his phone. I found out she was a childminder. I decided to give him another chance but six months on I just can't get over the betrayal. I asked him to leave today and being the narcissist he is after he asked me to employ her to look after our children.
For some reason I'm not cut up about it and don't understand why? My two daughters are delighted that we are splitting up, can someone explain why we feel this way??