I've been with my now ex partner for 13 years, we have 2 amazing girls together the relationship had always been amazing, normal couple arguments over the petty stuff in life up until just after out second child was born. Which was during covid, he had always been a family man worked hard to look after us but obviously during covid was furloughed and then during lockdown turned to gambling, we worked through it was hard but I stuck by him.
A year after I found out he had been taking cocaine heavily obviously caused a big rift between us I asked him to leave the family home, he got help and came out the other side again.
We recently moved into a lovely bigger house and again I've found out he was back taking cocaine heavily and in debt, he left the family home. He has never ever been violent towards me or really shouted at me but 2 weeks ago let himself in the house and attacked me causing a head injuryz whilst of his face on coke. My children didn't witness anything just heard shouting. I feel awful!
I rang the police and have now stopped all contact with him until he gets help for me the relationship is over, I need to set an example to my children but I am struggiling, I miss him ... The old him. It's hard to get my head around how we can go from being so in love to this, he was always a doting dad and partner and i just feel like they will never get that back again. I have immense guilt about a broken home for them. I just feel shit