Is it normal to be somewhat naive how I will be able to cope without him?
is it normal to wonder if it is really “that bad”?
i am also to blame in someways so i feel like a hypocrite.
but i just feel I can’t take living like this anymore.
I do love and care for him but honestly he’s not good for me. He’s a bad influence and does things which just make me feel awful, like an awful mother and just are not aligning with my values.
but then I’ve been influenced by him on occasion and participated leaving me feeling downright depressed.
its such a head fuck.