I have been married to my husband for 3 years, been together since our early 20s.
A few years ago we went through quite a hard time, we had no money and both had to work a lot. He was moody all the time and pushed me away and started confiding in another female friend. He is a nice guy and so thoughtful at times, but his moodiness was really difficult to be around.
If we argued he would rarely apologise for his part in the disagreement, would go days without talking to me and I felt genuinely under appreciated and unloved.
We had a big chat last year where I told him I didn’t want to be with him anymore. Since then he admits he was depressed, I have seen a huge change in him trying to be more loving and patient although I do think he is just trying to be on his best behaviour. I just don’t feel the same and it breaks my heart to see him try and me not be able to receive his efforts. I don’t like him touching me anymore, we havnt had sex in over a year.
Im so scared to break his heart but this is also breaking mine being in this situation. I feel like I should love him, I should be able to make it work because it’s not like he is abusive towards me. He has a good job, a lovely family and we still have things in common. I just don’t feel the “connection” and it makes me feel so guilty and sad.
Has anyone else been through something similar that can empathise with me ?