This is a long one and I understand there will be some judgement.
I was with my partner since 2018. He’s 30 now and I’m 22. We have a two year old together. I broke up with him last year because there were so many issues in the relationship and it was very messy, he didn’t take it well, awful words were exchanged and it resulted in him getting a stalking conviction against myself.
Months have passed and we (very naively) got back into contact and eventually back together, unbeknownst to many people due to the conviction and “taking things slowly”. He’s since been wonderful and a great dad. We’ve been able to talk about things openly and everything has genuinely been great.
There was a little bit of a cheating scare over the weekend and I found out that he hadn’t cheated on me. However I realised that I hoped he had so I had an excuse to leave him again? I think I realised that I’m not in love with him and I just needed that closure because the previous break up was traumatic and fast. I really didn’t realise.
I think I’m in fear of breaking up again because of last time.
I feel really stuck on this one and I’m in need of some advice. What’s the best, most amicable way of breaking up that also means it’ll be agreed on? I would really hope that we could remain civil for our two year old. I have a feeling he won’t take it well either way.