Decided to separate. DH has become unbearable to live with. I feel like he hates me deep down and have done for years. I always gave it another chance but something changed in me lately and I’ve realised it’s not going to change ever.
I’ve been seeing a therapist who is helping stay grounded, I have a lot of childhood trauma and attachment issues which I think has led to me putting up with this for years.
on one hand I feel like a grown woman who is putting myself and our children first and standing firm. But on the other hand I feel weak and terrified. I keep getting on with my day and then forgetting that we’re splitting up and feeling a knot in my stomach. I feel like I’m so brainwashed into being with him. He keeps acting like nothing has happened and I have to keep saying hmmm do you remember we’re breaking up.
I keep questioning if im doing the right thing or if it’s a phase etc. Also keep doing the classic imagining him moving on quickly and it’s upsetting. I do still love him but the relationship is toxic.
Has anyone else felt like this? How long did you stand firm before they got it? Any advice welcome