Nightmares about STBXH

[Finallyiamleaving]

I am on holiday with my teens (16 & 19). We are staying in a hotel and all in the same room. Having a fantastic time. So good to be away from STBXH as we’re still living together.
I have woken my children up (accidentally) on the last two nights because I have been having nightmares. Apparently, I have been screaming, making cowering noises before waking up in a hot sweat.
I have been dreaming about STBXH attacking me and raping me. Awful dreams and they seem so real.
I just said to my children that I was having a nightmare and I couldn’t remember what it was about.
There was no physical violence in the relationship. There was and still is emotional and financial abuse.
I think I have been having these dreams a lot lately and they explain tiredness and other things I had been putting down to the perimenopause. Or probably both.
Has anyone else experienced similar? Any advice, other than separate rooms when on holiday?

Hello. I have no experience of this but perhaps when you are back from your holiday you should book a session with a good therapist and tell them about your dreams. Sounds like something deep is rising to the surface, they might help you understand what's going on.

I have these nightmares regularly. I see his face above me and wake shouting on verge of panic attacks.
I am waiting for counseling which I hope will help