My husband left me late last year, leaving what I thought was a happy marriage and home as we were looking at new houses etc and life was good. I then discovered he had been having an affair. He is now living with his affair partner and has introduced our child to her and they are playing happy families with both of their children. All within the space of 15 weeks.
As time goes on and all of these event unravel I feel myself struggling more and more. Knowing how happy he is with everything going so well for him in the world, whilst I'm still in shock and devastated that he is capable of this. He knows how much our child means to me and for me to no longer be able to see them everyday due to coparenting and having the affair partner around our child, it's breaking me and he will know that.
When will it get easier and when will the dark cloud of depression leave? I have accessed counselling and put lots in place but I'm seriously depressed and so sad and grieving for the life I had longed for and was happy in. None of it still makes sense, he stands as a stranger in-front of me, he shows no emotion or remorse and is quite frankly being vile. He even sent the other child's clothes back with our child last week, I sense he is looking for a reaction. I'm too stubborn to give a reaction but it's actually making me miserable and so very sad.
Any advice for dealing with this will be greatly welcomed. I'm doing all I can to help but I just want my old life back with the husband who once loved me and respected me. I loved him so much and would have done anything for him. I worry that I will never feel happy again.