About a week before Christmas my husband relapsed, again. He’s never been able to be sober for longer than a six month stretch. Right before Christmas the drinking started again. I was wrapping presents and making Christmas cookies and got a call from my mother “I don’t even know how to tell you this or if I should tell you”. Apparently my husband, who was in the other room, accidentally sent her messages intended for another woman. Things to the effect of “let’s run away together, meet up with me and * the man of your dreams, etc. When I confronted him about it he started screaming at me calling me a wh** and a few other names. I called the police. He heard me on the phone with them and he left. I was in the process of finishing out the 45 pages of divorce papers the next morning when I got a call from the local jail. “What did you do?” “I don’t know, I just woke up here” “Did you kill someone?” “I don’t know, I don’t even know where our car is” I found the car. I also found his ring in the cupholder. Also, his phone laying on the floorboard of the car. He was pulled over at 2:08 am. On his phone were messages to a woman arranging to meet up with her and pay her $200 for an hours worth of sexual favors. He was on his way there when he was pulled over. He’s going to be going to prison for 18 months. We have a 5 month old. I am absolutely disgusted. I will never forgive him. He’s a miserable sober person and a complete and utter monster when he relapses. He’s turned my life into a living nightmare. This man doesn’t just relapse, he drinks bottles and bottles of vodka until he gets black out drunk and something terrible happens. He’s going to be getting out for a month or so before he goes in to serve his 18 month prison sentence and all I think about is how I want to pack up all of my belongings and the kids and get as far away from him as possible. God I wish that I could. Thanks in advance for anybody that took the time to read this and I appreciate any support or advise that you have to give.