Hello. I'm a first time user so not sure of the ropes. It took me ages to find a user name that hadn't been taken. I would really like to hear your thoughts or even better your own experiences. I divorced my husband 6 years ago after being together 30 years. Until I left him I always thought I loved him but I had been depressed living in a place I hated and the neighbours were awful. But the main reason was my husband was getting into arguments with my teenage son and I became frightened that my son would leave home as soon as he could and I would lose him.
So I left and took my children with me and started proceedings. I know my husband was really upset about it and it felt as if my world had fallen apart but I was glad to get out. As time went on I'm not sure if I started to have second thoughts but sometimes we would talk almost like in the old days. But I thought I can't turn back now because I'll look stupid. One day he suggested getting back together and I laughed at him. So it came to the decree nisi and it was like there was a part of me that thought it would never happen.
It's been 3 years since then. He's living quite a distance away and seems to be happy with his life although I think he's still hurt from things my children tell me. Things in my own life are OK but not great except I still have the children all the time. Our lives are much the same as it used to be except he's not part of it. I make a point of not thinking about him as much as possible. What's done is done. But there's a part of me that thinks i got rid of not just a husband but my best friend and it's hard to put a positive gloss on it.
Am I the only one who feels like this?