Just looking for a bit of hope I suppose.
Just finished sorting the financials after nearly 2 years while we’ve been living in the same house with him ignoring me completely (even in front of the kids). Had an offer accepted on a house. Should feel really positive.
But I’ve just completely crashed. I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop thinking about the good times, about how if I hadn’t left (which I did after he ignored me for 3 weeks and then I arranged counselling where he went on and on about how the problem is that I am abuser) then we might be on a lovely family holiday right now. I miss my kids when they are with him. I miss having someone. I’m lonely. I’m scared I’ll be alone forever (even though I can’t face ever being with someone and getting hurt again).
Sorry for the long post. I’ll be ok. But I’m tired of just being ok. I don’t want to be strong anymore.
Please share any stories of hope. Thank you.