Desperate

[Snowdrop89]

Please tell me you’ve been here… husband behaving awfully, won’t leave, I can’t just leave cos of the 3 kids & money. I’m working my way through all that practical stuff but I just feel emotionally broken. I don’t have my own family, I don’t have many friends I connect with. I feel like I’m pouring from an empty cup to take care of my girls & I desperately need someone to care about me. Crying and crying tonight & just feel desperate. Has anyone been here? Does it pass? Not sure how much more I can take 😢 x

I'm so sorry for what your going through. I get it. It was so difficult leaving the situation - it feels almost impossible. But there's so many resources online that can help you and you should definitely use them. Money was my biggest issue so hopefully some of these should help -
Take advantage of the free hours solicitors give. Get a list of questions ready so you can use your time wisely and find out what you need to know. Be wary of the ones just trying to scare you and get you to hire them.
Use different online resources - I've seen mumsnet have some helpguides at the top of this page so check those out. Join facebook groups with people going through the same things - you'll find likeminded people and might even make some friends. Also try this free resource I used - https://www.iamlip.com/ it has a bunch of free guides that take you through the entire process.
Remember - your future self will thank you for taking this step. It hurts now but this is the best way to heal yourself emotionally and be emotionally free in the future. I believe in you - you got this!

I think it comes and goes in waves, I'm not out the other side yet, but I know it's there. I don't see how it could be worse than the last few years. I have 3 DC too, he's refusing to move out till he can buy a place, i can't move out till we sell, disabled and DC have SEN. I feel borken, but I've felt broken and worthless and burnt out for a long time. I still can't see how I'll get through this, how I'll find the strength to get my kids through this. It hurts so much, I feel broken, I have nothing left, but occasionally now we're actually seperated I can see a glimmer of some peace somewhere ahead.