Could really do with some advice on how to move on from my long term abusive relationship. We were together a long time and were due to be married, over the years what I thought was care was control and the odd push/shove/strangle I believed I provoked. My personality disappeared along with my self confidence. The home we made is being sold and the dog we bought together I'll lose.
Everyday I try to remind myself why we're not together - all the nasty things he said, the many times he left me hanging as to whether he wanted me and then when he flipped back to being nice. Every time I think I'm getting somewhere I start to miss him and the life we had.... the life I still keep thinking I want. To the point I start to think maybe I imagined it all and I'm going crazy.
When I leave the house for a few days to get some space , I miss it like crazy and start to think is it all worth it?