I am separating from my partner, relatively amicably given the circumstances (he had an affair). I am convinced that getting divorced is the right thing for us, and for the kids (4 and 6), who have really suffered from the tension in our house for the last few years. I am confident we can move to something better that will work out alright.
BUT.
We have just started nesting, and I am missing the children more than I would ever have thought possible. It is like a physical pain. I have booked in lots of trips to see friends, a course, and am trying to use the time to get my head together and mend from the last few months of awfulness, D-day etc. But it really hurts not seeing my kids every day. Just comes in waves when I see other people out with their kids, or look at photos, or wonder what they're doing.
I imagine we'll do 50/50 or close to that, as exp is a good and committed dad, just not a good husband. I know he can look after them but am full of longing to see them and worry they'll feel I've abandoned them. I am usually the parent to get up in the night, collect them from school, etc etc. So I guess I have the guilts as well as feeling sad.
This is only the second time I've been apart from them since we decided to separate. Please tell me that this gets easier, and that you adjust? And what I can do to make things feel less terrible?