I'm going through separation from my DH after 10 years- 2 young children together.
The women in his life took a disliking to me straight away when we started dating. His mother was awful to me and kept asking questions orientating around my poor family's wealth as a way of ascertaining my worthiness. She had never liked his previous girlfriend using the nickname "the witch" for her. She became incredibly overbearing and critical and I had to keep her at arms length.
We worked together when we met and he was part of "the clique" and was always the agreeable, easy company guy. I went to a few things with the clique but they were quite a toxic bunch, the Queen Bee of the group also took an instant dislike to me. I didn't really let it bother me, tried not to mix with them until a couple of years later and I was moved to her department at work. I became pregnant around the same time and she was rude and unkind to me- letting doors go in my face, ignoring me, not inviting me to any more social events, sarcastic comments about what I was eating and how big I was getting, that sort of thing. The other women in the group- 3 of them, an extension of her, blatantly ignored me during the pregnancy.
DH was in denial about the whole thing at the time but respected my wishes not to socialise with them at all anymore. He then eventually saw their behaviour for himself by accident and said he was having nothing to do with thay group anymore, and he didn't.
Fast forward to now, going through a separation, although there has been no major cause of it, we have fallen out of love and he has been selfish over the last couple of years. He is now living with awful MIL who will be delighted he's home I've no doubt, but worst of all, he's now socialising with these women again (there are also a couple of men within the group). I just feel betrayed. I was so poorly during my pregnancy with DC1 because of these women and he's back in the fold. I feel sick.
I think he always had a bit of a crush on one of them I suspected at the time (he once asked her out and she rejected) and I've been informed by an old colleague (I don't work there anymore) that he's spending a lot of time in her office 1:1 at the end of a work day.
This hurts more than anything else.
More than the relationship breaking down, more than him moving out. He knows what they put me through. I just feel so sad about it all. I was hoping we would remain friends after the separation, I always hoped we would, but I can see now that I can't do that.
How do I feel better about all this?