Delayed reaction

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Although we mutually decided to split almost 9 months ago and the first few months were anxious, I feel like it's only just now that I'm starting to miss being married.

Don't get me wrong, I couldn't live with HIM, but there was a comfort blanket in marriage that made me feel I could face anything, but now I feel like my strong facade is starting to crumble. Not sure how much is the changing economic climate too.

Anyone else feeling similar?

I grieved my marriage. It's an institution. You get used to having another adult around. Their family too. Someone who has responsibility for you. I don't want him back either but I'd love to be married again. It can feel a bit scary as a single girl much as ever ruins helps and you can do way more than you realised.

It's ups and downs, much like grief after a bereavement, it'll take you by surprise now and then. Just hang on to the positives and there was a great thread on AIBU about the joys of singledom after a break up and it really made me reflect on ask the things I have come to love.

Agree with Kim cheese.
You are grieving over the future you thought you had. I found reading about the grief pathway helpful to understand what I was feeling and why