I left my DH 4 years ago and I am confused about how I feel.
Ive had counselling and it has not really helped.
Sometimes I feel fine and other times I just want things back to how things were.
My DH became cold towards me and emotionally he wasnt there.
When I visit the house to see the children he is there but I dont really see him that much.
He has a new partner which he has been with for two years. They seem happy which is a good thing.
I still love him but I dont know even if he was available or wanted to I would want him back.
The problem is when we split up there was not one conversation about the marriage, unless i instigated it he wouldnt talk about how he felt emotionally.
I think today is just a bad day. I want to move on and not think about it.
Sometimes I wonder what he thinks about me ? Ive no idea.
His parents do not talk to me or have anything to do with me because I instigated the split.
I just want to resolve this and move on. I hate to think I spent 18 years with someone who didnt really care about me.