Firstly I am Sorry for the long post .
My husband and I have been together for 14 years and married 12 years . We were really happy like most of the couples. I started to have my doubts about him some how ... I found a big poster of his ex under clothes inside the wardrobe I found text messages on his phone from other women. We had a conversation about it and the my trust was gone ...
We haven't been having sex like we used to sometimes I would stay without sex for 8 months (was not pregnant). I was the one that was trying to make him to want me but he was always tired or had headaches... I told him so many times how he was hurting my feelings. After conversations he was ok for 2 weeks and then go back being the same ... it has been like this for over 10 years .Now I am so stupid thinking that he would change So I am pregnant by our second child . He is so cold to me .I am nearly 7 months pregnant he Never came to me to rub my bump or ask if I am ok or if the baby is ok. Seems that he doesn't care much . So now I was so p... off and I went again and checked his computer and I found all porn movies, live chats with naked women . I am feeling very lonely for the last 10 years , there is no much of communication between us. I tried to be a good wife , ... I have my little son 3 years old and now I am pregnant. My hormones are all over the place... We bought a house together years ago and have no mortgage . I got to a point of asking him for divorce , but my concerns are. I don't want to be on the streets with two kids . I am so afraid but at the same time so unhappy. My question is: AIBU to throw up in the air all of those years we've being together ? ... thank you!