After a massively extended divorce process due to the three lockdowns, the money order was on the mat this morning. It was a real shock. I felt seven shades of excited. I immediately went on the U.gov website, logged into the old portal, and pressed the decree absolute button. I then popped to the shops and by the time I got back the email was there with the decree absolute attached!
I then mailed the ol X (not STBX anymore
) attaching the decree and that was that.
I had thought when it happened, Id send him a letter saying how hurt I'd been during the whole divorce process; but in the end I just wished him well. It felt more dignified somehow.
In addition to feeling extremely excited, I also felt strangely empty, a deflated sort of anti-climax. Divorce is such an incredibly painful process. I had no idea how horrendous it would be, how complex my emotions, how much it's aged me. How much my trust has been obliterated. And yet today is the first day of the rest of my life. Something to celebrate. I AM FREE!