Where do i start..i am in a marriage of 8 years i have one child. It seems as though me and my husband have fallen out we have grown differently, we dont connect anymore we dont have sex or even sleep in the same room. He rejects me every time always has some kind of an excuse. I am fed up, every time we talk we argue so now we hardly talk. Our only common thing is our child. Now even though this is going on i have a male friend who i am very close with. Havnt seen him for quite some time - we live in different areas, but we are close and talk everyday. He was the person i fell in love with 18years ago and we have been on and off in contact. Since the pandemic he has been my release since things have gotten bad between me and hubby. I still really love and believe he is my soulmate - ultimately i want to be with him but i have a massive hurdle to overcome first which is my marriage. What i really want to do is leave my husband i can not live this unhappy life. But i am scared of the backlash i will get from family/friends and community. How do i make the first step to getting out of this marriage and i dont want to hurt my child in all of this but do i stay put for child sake or do what i have to do and get out of this.