Does anyone else struggle with this? I think I was possibly in a low-level abusive relationship, and am really struggling with self-confidence. I feel so afraid my husband will take my DC away (ie gain majority custody), but even the few nights he has had with DC I have found incredibly hard and I just dread them. Which I know is selfish. I just miss them so terribly much and I feel like I am being punished by having less access to my child, all because I didn't want to be in an unhealthy relationship. It is so hard to cope with the fact that DC now has another home; I just never thought about it this way - I only ever thought about being out of the relationship, and only thought about the positives. I know that I should actually be pleased that he is making an effort with DC, but I feel very mistrustful of him and I am finding it so hard to be positive at this moment even though I know I need to pull up my socks. No one to speak to in real life because I am trying to be positive about us co-parenting.