Our divorce has been delayed by Covid lockdowns. We are 99% of the way through, have been since decree nisi in April but waiting for the decree absolute and money order sign-off from the judge.
We're 18 months on from separation, but I can't let go of the bitterness and anger I still feel. We are living separately now and possibly a lot of how I'm feeling is because I am alone with the kids at uni now; oh and I lost my job So I have a lot of time to walk in this third lockdown and think. Some days are fine, some weeks are fine and then I'm back on the angry wash-cycle that goes round and round and round. Yes he betrayed me, yes he lied to me for years, yes he coerced me, yes I allowed myself to be coerced.
How do we move on once and for all? How do we take the bitterness out of our lives and hearts? How do I let go of all of this anger?
I have had therapy, lots of it and I'm reading Women Who Run with the Wolves, which is helping, but it's not going away.
How did you let go? How did you move on? How can you except that you have not necessarily had any of the answers you need. No apology… The 'why' never being resolved? Your experiences of this please. Thanks in advance.