It's getting real and I'm scared

[momofgirls85]

So I'm finally at the point of leaving although it's not happening how I would like.
I don't yet have a house it's proving very hard. But my ex has said he wants me out.
Didn't expect to be homeless at christmas.
I started moving my belongings into storage yesterday and its made it feel so real.
I'm just so scared of the future.
I have to apply for my daughters primary school and I have no clue where we will be living.
My family don't seem to want us to stay with them so I might end up in a refuge.
This is not what I wanted for my children.
I feel so much guilt and I just feel like a complete failure.

Are you married ?

No we are not married and I'm not on the mortgage.
We have been together 7 years with a 4 and 1 year old.
He has never been hands on with the kids, drinks heavily, is very negative, has a temper.
I feel he is a dad when it suits him.
And he put his hands around my neck 2 months ago which made me really think I'm best leaving.
But I have guilt.
We live in a lovley area, lovely house ect but it's not my hometown so I feel it's best to leave the area.
I am just so scared and feel so much guilt for my kids.

No house is lovely if you have hands around your neck. This is scary under any circumstances and regardless of if you are on the mortgage or not, get some legal advice. Most solicitors offer an initial session for free and you may qualify for legal aid.
Hang in there and sending you hugs