Omg I used to post on here a lot a year ago, I was just in a toxic situation and a picture came up from exactly a year ago of nothing in particular but I just remember that horrid, anxious, painful feeling at that time. My teenage step daughters hated me and they had all gone out because they couldn't stand to be around me. My ex husband would take them out invite all his family all be posted on social media, people commenting what a lovely family etc, I would pretend I was ok about it and smile and ask if they had a good time. They wouldn't eat anything I cooked, refused to go on holiday or the Xmas panto if I was there, so I didn't go. My dcs were upset as we were basically pushed out. I cried in car parks on my own, I stayed in hotels friends houses, with my dcs. No one ever asked how my children were it was awful.
Anyway a year later and I've just bought my own house, away from all that, my dcs are a lot happier even just for seeing me happier. I've actually stopped crying now too, but I still look back and think what the hell!! Why didn't he stand up for me, what had I done so wrong! But you know I don't think he thought I would actually move on and be independent and not need him and most of all not put up with all that. I'm actually really proud of myself, I was a mess this time last year but still hoped he would want me and try and save our marriage but he didn't and I hear they have left anyway to live with their mum and he is on his own. Me and my kids are close and happy we've done it and that awful worthless feeling has gone. No one will treat me like that again!!