Well it's been almost a year since I found out he cheated on me. But only 9 months since he moved out.
Obviously we haven't lived 'our new normal life' for very long because of lockdown and being furloughed from work, so it's only been since September that we've both been back at work and the children in school.
I just still feel so utterly utterly low and heartbroken. I have days when it is all-consuming and I hate him and other days where I try and minimise my feelings and consider if I should take him back.
I'm meant to have spent today doing coursework (I'm studying alongside working) but have not even showered and have cried and felt generally sorry for myself. I feel like I'm getting worse rather than better...I wonder if this is because of the delayed 'normality' of becoming a single parent, due to lockdown etc.
Urgh. It hurts. 