Hi,
I’ve been married for 8 years now and it’s been stale for a while. A few years ago I found out he’d been talking about really personal information about our relationship with another woman on messenger, a facebook friend. I found out, he begged for forgiveness but then I found out he’d done again. Only going to counselling stopped me from leaving that time. Although I feel sure that he just saw her as someone to talk too, or at least that’s what he says. The marriage has never been the same since though as I lost trust in him.
It’s been some time since I felt any real love and care from him. When I threaten to leave them he tries to get me to stay and makes promises that he doesn’t keep.
We have a 7 year old though who loves his dad.
My husband isn’t horrible, life is ok, we have a lovely home. I feel so lonely though.
I’m scared of losing the security, my home and of course hurting my little boy.
I work full time but my career has been held back as he has always earned more and we move abroad etc to improve his salary at the detriment of mine.
We live in a house that Ill never be able to afford by myself, the house is in his name as I was a sahm when it was bought and didn’t have an income. I won’t be able to get a mortgage myself as I am nearly 50 now.
I just feel that I’ll be throwing my whole life and security away. I don’t know how I can continue with a marriage when he’s an emotional brick wall.
Has anyone else been in the same position and can offer advice?