Worried I don’t have ability to have my own life

[coco123456789]

Separation seems inevitable now. But I am worried about who I am without DH. I don’t yearn for a huge career, or to run marathons. All I ever wanted was a family. How do I make a life of my own? I have 3 young kids. I don’t feel excited about the future, only vaguely positive that I could be free from someone I have to walk on eggshells around. I feel embarrassed in front of the children as it’s clear he hates me. I feel a bit ashamed of what a half person I am.

He wants to live together but I can’t live with someone who doesn’t like me

I do have hobbies, interests and friends. But I don’t plan the days out and things. He doesn’t have any friends as he works all the time. He has lost touch with them all as he could never meet for drinks and lunches and stuff as he was always too busy

You’re going to be fine, I can tell from your posts. You’ll just need a little time to find your feet and get your head together. You’ll look back and be really pleased that you’re not with him.

So I guess separation would be separation within the house but I don’t want that. I think it’s really unhealthy for 2 people to live together for the kids unless they are both on the same page. I am worried that I have lost myself but I will never find myself if that happens.

When you finally leave enjoy your house decoration,