Difficult time of the year

[MrsDarcy4092]

I’ve been separated almost two years but I am missing my husband very much at the moment. We’ve agreed on no contact, as of two - three week ago. He has a new gf of about a year and a half. Up until recently he was still saying he missed me and hoped we would get back together. But he’s in a relationship so i have never taken it seriously. He lied a lot of our relationship and I don't trust him.I also believe I deserve to be loved by someone who won’t lie to me and Deliberately do things he knows will hurt me. But that doesn’t mean I don’t miss him. Which is so so hard. Everyone this time of year is with partners and families and buying gifts for loved ones and I feel incredibly lonely.
Will that ever go?!

I was literally talking about this feeling with my pal a few hrs ago. It's almost like a bereavement loosing a long term relationship with the extra sting you might see them with someone else...

I'm sorry your ex has been stringing you along with texts- does the OW know?

What will you do on Xmas day?

Xmas day I am spending with my parents, siblings and their children. Which is nice but also makes me feel lonely tbh. I don’t have children but desperately want them. I was tempted to spend it at home alone and stay in my pjs all day!

I don’t think he was stringing me along but I don’t know what he expected me to say - I’m not going to break up his new relationship. If he was single I guess I would consider dating him again and Probably shouldn’t as I don’t trust him so it’s a good thing.

Today I put up my tree and decorations, first time I’ve done that since we separated!

That is very relatable x

Well done for doing something fun for you by putting the decorations up- don't you find the place looks so naked when they come down in jan!

Totally understand... my husband moved out in October and I still haven’t got used to the quiet in the house esp on the days my DD is with him. I am definitely lonely and finding this Xmas very hard. I have got decorations up but don’t feel festive in the slightest and really can’t wait for it all to be over so I can say good bye and good riddance to this horrible year! Hang in there OP... I know what you mean about seeing family making you feel more lonely but I think on the whole I do better when I’m around other people .... just as long as they don’t expect me to be the life and soul.

I am in this boat.

What's worse is hearing from my son how basically I've been replaced by a random stranger.

Go book a nice holiday. Meet someone new.