I'm two years on from leaving our matrimonial home (My H had an affair...and blamed me!) and we share a 5 year old DS. I'm the happiest I've ever been, especially the last 6 months or so. I've grown so much as a person, I don't take shit from anyone and I'm a damn good mother!
I love the life that my DS and I have now. I have plenty of money from our house sale equity and I'm fortunate to be in the position where I don't need to worry about money, at all really. It's a far cry from my marriage, where my part time wages were paid into husbands account and I rarely saw a penny of it...despite that, he still managed to get himself into a shit tonne of debt, no idea how. My finest day was actually being able to go to the car showroom, choose and pay for a car that I wanted. Up until that point I had always had whatever crap car EXH decided I could have...now I have a gorgeous silver Ford Ecosport that's my pride and joy!
I love having the freedom to do what I want, when I want to do it, without having to ask anyone's permission. My son always comments on how much I laugh and smile now, he remembers the times when we lived with his Dad and mummy didn't smile or laugh much at all.
I can decorate my house however I like, and if I want to leave the washing up and have a glass of wine in the garden of an evening, I can do so without someone shouting at me!
There's no one to ruin my very occasional nights out with friends by calling me constantly and texting...and then accusing me of being a slut when I arrived home. I stopped going out at all eventually, it wasn't worth the hassle!
I've always wanted very short hair, husband told me that I would just look like a lesbian (whatever that means!) so I didn't cut it. It was the first thing I did when I left that house...and it looks absolutely gorgeous! The same for make up, I wasn't allowed to wear it in case I dared to look even slightly attractive! Now, I always looks immaculate and I get so many people telling me I look stunning, and so well put together!
I think though, most of all, I'm so proud of myself for doing this...when in the beginning I felt like my world had ended. In fact, my world had ended and now I have a very different world, which I absolutely love!
I do still have days where I worry that I might actually spend the rest of my life on my own...but once I remind myself that I'm fine alone, I don't need anyone, and I have my DS, I realise that's okay! If someone comes along who is special enough for me to bring them into our lives then that's great, if not then I'll still be fine! Although, I do like to think that there's someone out there for me...somewhere!