My husband has said it's over. We've got two DDs 4&7.
He's always been controlling but dressed up as "what's best for me".
I genuinely did everything I could to make this work and made myself ill trying to be perfect.
He waited until the day after my 30th birthday to tell me it was over. I've lost all dignity begging and pleading for him to try but he's done. For me it sounded so final without any reason.
I begged him to go counselling with me and he refused.
So many points in the day I feel like I can't cope. I can't do this to the kids. Neither of us can afford to run the home by ourselves so we are at a stalemate over who leaves. Currently I'm on the sofa and the tension is unbearable.
He regularly uses my phone (to go through it) and logged into his google account. I saw his internet search history. It told me everything I needed to know.
Secretly checked his messages and he's having a liaison with a woman at work. He's been there three years, how long has this gone on for.
He's also signed up to dating sites, bought expensive gifts I've never seen (but borrows money from me) and watches a ton of porn.
Christmas is coming up and every day I feel like I'm dead inside trying to put one foot in front of the other for the children.
He strolled in this morning at 3.30am with a big grin on his face and I physically threw up torturing myself over what he had been up to.
Sorry for the long post. I'm just lost. Embarrassed my marriage is over and I'm yet another statistic. My future has been ripped away, we wanted another baby next year.
Financially I'll be a mess. It'll destroy the kids. I just don't know what to do. I can't eat or sleep.
Mummies please give me some advice.