Right to leave but sometimes it’s pants

[Tiredoptimist]

Left in August (no choice) after some months of living separately in the same house.
He was very controlling. I was right to go.
Now? Son has become his best mate (informal shared custody) I’ve been damned as a menopausal and mad woman who is trying to recapture her youth. I have no money. He plays mind games all the time and my car is broken!
I would never go back and I have lost a lot but still sometimes I get almost knocked off my feet with guilt. Mad isn’t it? Does it get better?

Yes. Disentangle yourself as far as possible from him. Your life will start piecing itself back together bit by bit.

Thanks. I am trying. I am focussing on feeling safe, being adult and trying not to eat the entire coffee cake currently sitting in my fridge.

Oh yes. Coffee cake takes it's toll when there's only you there to eat it, as I know to my cost.

Guilt why because as a human being you are placed on this earth to be happy and have a right to be kind to yourself.
Your happiness and stability cannot be determined by another.
There is no guilt.
Just a right to live