I know I did the right thing but it hurts

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Hey, I know I've made the right decision regarding leaving my husband I tried for over a year and nothing changed, I even left with police in night and went back and nothing changed.

But why does it hurt so much? Why do I miss him? What do I miss?

Our good times were few and far between but when it was good it was great but then it was too bad too much of the time

I left my whole life behind and took my son to live in another country to be with him and I just feel like I tried so hard to make it work, asked him to spend more time, asked him to talk to my son, asked him to stop taking my money despite him working full time and me not, I asked him to stop lying about money, I asked him to put me and the kids first (I fell pregnant quickly and had a daughter)

I know I made the right choice to move back to the uk with my children but I miss him, why do I miss him? What do I miss exactly?

It hasn't been long, one week! I know very short time, but how can I make this easy? Can it be easy? Or will I be miserable now for the foreseeable

Just bumping this so people see it

You've done the hard bit leaving. Can you go back to your home country for family support? Things will be hard but you'll get there

I did come back to the uk and things have been hard this last week but we are getting there, my eldest is confused but happy to be back my youngest is only 3 months

I miss my husband too, but I just know I can’t possibly live with him, so with that thought, it makes it easier to cope. Hope it gets easier for you too.

I know 100% things would not get better no matter how longer I stayed, my children would get more and more unhappy, how can I child be happy with a dad who basically has to be told to talk to them?

I write things down like that and then think, no why do you miss him??? Then question myself, Thankyou and I'm sorry you miss your husband too, it is hard isn't it

It’s sad it has to end this way. I see married couples all the time that seem to get on and have a laugh, and I think my marriage just wasn’t going to be a happy one like theirs. It’s tough but it’s life, and we have to just think and plan for the future without them.

That's what I can't get passed too, what is it? Why can't I have that? It's so much going on in my head

This is very early days OP. You are going through a massive life change with 2 young children to look after. Give yourself time to grieve the end of your marriage. Ofcourse you miss your husband even if he wasn't a good one. Take oneday at a time and remind yourself of why you left him.
I wish you and your children a happy future.

Thankyou I keep thinking if I stop and think to much I won't want to get out of bed but I have to for the children, I'm keeping on going and taking it day by day