Hi All, maybe I'm just venting. I just feel I'm going mad. I've told my husband of 20 years that I want to separate. I'm utterly miserable and have been for years. So of course now he's sad. I get that. I do. I've stayed with him so long because of our children. He knows this. We've been through this discussion on countless occasions over the years. Now our kids are crying constantly, he's saying emotionally manipulative things to them when I'm not there- such as I'll leave them if we can't pretend like we're a normal family and that they have to make me happy. That they have to choose between us. The list goes on. I feel desperate and sad. Part of me feels we should stay together and he can be happy and the kids will be ok. But it makes me want to die. I feel sad and suicidal at the thought of spending more of my life with him. But the thought that I hurt my kids by leaving , leaves me desperately sad also and I'm so angry. I feel like a trapped animal, like I can't breathe. I don't know what to do. I can't go on.