Just been to a family party at my brothers house on my own as my brother and his wife didn’t want to meet my new partner.
They never ask me how I really am coping with my divorce, he only asks “what am I doing with myself these days” I make up stuff, but truth is I’m watching films all day as I find it’s the only way I can block out the reality of my shit life.. I feel like I’m digging my own grave. Thrown away my marriage, and house whilst my brother flaunts his big house, 3 successful grown children, and happy successful lifestyle. His wife didn’t even say hello to me as she hates me.
I need to excercise desperately but I’m just not in a good place mentally, my friends avoid me, and the only good thing in my life is my new man who I don’t see much as he’s working all the time.
We do have good plans for the future, but I am scared as it’ll be such a change, we have had some good holidays and good times ahead, but it’s the day to day coping. I know people on here are going to say “get a job” or “ do charity work” but I just can’t get in a good frame of mind .
I’m hoping that someone will say something that will spark me into action. Is anyone else feeling the same ?