So depressed

[Itsnotme123]

I’m that depressed I could stick a knife through my heart

But you won’t because your strong,beautiful,have a purpose and are needed ,loved and valued .You will come out the other side hold that belief xxx

@itsnotme123
Make an appointment at the gp, discuss it with them. If you can’t wait call the smartians - they are a friendly ear who can talk through anything if you need to
You are not alone

You will come out the other side. Get support around you. And just take each day as it comes. Keep talking.

Just want to say you are not alone.

I'm 6 months separated and starting divorce mediation soon and I have days when I am fine... numb... and days like today when I feel like I've been skinned and someone has put razor blades inside my veins.

We will get through it.

I feel the same I'm five weeks in of husband leaving. So up and down. Felt so low yesterday. It's so hard. I feel for you all.

Yesterday I cried a lot - today I haven’t - just take one day at a time

Definitely one day at a time x

Im 2 years on and feel the same not because im heart broken but because he is still a controlling narsasist.

I'm 7 months down the line and feel the same. Again I'm still being controlled and destroyed. My wife wants me dead so she can brush everything she did under the carpet.

Yellowshirt it's heartbreaking. I'm struggling. 5 weeks in. Had started to feel better last week Then this weekend it's hit me again. Just want the pain to stop.

My daughter of 13 goes on holiday on Friday to so due to my work I don't see her for nearly a month.

That must be hard for you yellowshirt. I hope this month goes quick for you both
One of my son's is nearly 13 it's a difficult age for them anyway without having to go through this.

Thank you everyone. I think I’m going through the depression stage of this divorce. I had the denial stage, anger didn’t really happen, can’t wait for the acceptance stage ! I do feel sorry for those of you who have the abusive stbex or child problems.

Itsnotme123 that's so important to recognise that it's just a 'stage' and there is light at the end of the tunnel.
I went back to my therapist in February because I felt in a dark place after the denial, then a manic phase (part of the denial?), but similarly had a lack of anger.
The really helpful thing my therapist said is that although you will be on a relatively upwards trajectory to recovery from this awful and shocking event, it's not straightforwardly upwards. So there are bumps along the way and it's easy to think that this means you're not recovering sufficiently but that's not the case!
I don't know if that makes sense, but it helped me.

Similarly I would love to get to the acceptance stage and especially the feeling of 'meh' in regards to my ex and not caring if he's still with his affair partner and what they're doing, etc.

I keep telling myself that all this painful stuff now (I'm about to do the financial negotiations in the divorce) is hard but necessary on the road to recovery.

We will get there. It just takes time and patience and a bit of self-love.

It's not me.... I'm in a similar situation where I want the divorce to go through so I don't have to think of my wife and her affair partner. My wife is a secondary school teacher in the same school as her affair partner and was even arranging week long school trips for them to go on together with the kids.
As you might be able to tell I'm still very angry even after 8 months.

That's awful, Yellowshirt were your kids at the school as well? So she was taking them and the school kids?
Luckily I managed to convince my ex not to introduce his new girlfriend to the kids (I asked how he would feel if I brought a strange man into our home).