Our little one was born in January 2019 the first few weeks I struggled to recover from the birth mentally and physically the birth being over and done with on gas and air in just under 20 minutes as rewarding as it was i just found it traumatic as this experience was new to me, since february we have been on and off having our different ways of parenting struggling to co parent etc this has result in disagreements up until this very day. He claims to have depression but it has took him months to seek help he was due to return to the doctors for this help but never ended up returning claiming his work shift meant he couldn’t yet he had the following day off and still chose not to go...i advised him due to this if he wanted to see his daughter id want to be present or be in the house whilst his mum or dad are there vs versa he has since called me a ‘horrible mum’ in front of my work colleagues...he called his daughter ‘an accessory’ all because i passed her to my mum and her partner whilst we were out having a family meal and most of all he hasn’t contributed a single penny to his daughter he hasn’t provided at all for her..he gets paid roughly £800/1000 per month depending on his hours they vary as he is a team leader for a pub and by the end of the month he has spent all his money he’s had drug addictions in the past years leading up until we got together he quit smoking weed but now I feel he is up to no good again he is constantly having mood swings one minute is he fine next minute he isn’t as for his daughter he never texts to ask how she is he never asks if he can see her using the excuse I don’t let him which is a poor one I just have my daughters safety as my best interests especially since he’s not thinking straight I am debating contacting child maintenance and making him pay yes this will cause tension but something needs to be done he has a brand new cot at his under his bed which is his nieces she never used it in the end I asked if I could collect this for our daughter and he is being awkward arranging a pick up and it’s iust like he doesn’t want to provide for his daughter we are no longer together but god he is making this difficult....im staying strong for my daughter but it’s heartbreaking at the same time :(