Husband left me and new baby 8 months ago

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My husband left myself and our (at the time) six month old baby 8 months ago. He spent a long time saying he was confused. There was briefly another woman. We have been in therapy but with a split agenda, I wanted to work on our marriage and he wanted to communicate so we could coparent well.
He has been cruel and horrible and a completely different person. He now says he regrets the other woman and the way he treated me but said ‘if it wasn’t her it would have been someone else’ as he was trying to throw a granaide in our relationship as he wasn’t happy.
I am really struggling. I have, against my better judgement spent these 8 months crying and begging him to come home and promising to be a better partner and wife. He said this had just pushed him away. He said I’ve proven myself to be a ‘very angry person’ (what did he expect?!).
I’m really struggling. I miss him. I love him. I still have hope and it’s destroying me. I am seeing a therapist myself to help me cope.
Any advice from anyone who has been there/is going through similar?

What a difficult time
But listen to what he is telling you through his actions and words . He does not want to be with you . The sooner you understand that the sooner you can start to deal with the new reality
So stop running after him , sort the maintenance / access out , and hold your head high and start the rest of your life with your beautiful baby .
I know this sounds harsh but you are not helping yourself . Don’t wait fir him to change his mind , get on with your life ,best of luck x

I know you love him and miss him, but he is being cold and manipulative. If he was a decent person he would simply tell you that he was not interested, rather than allowing you to hope for reconciliation then berating you for your sad feelings. He's also a pillock for walking away from a tiny baby he helped create to get his end away with another woman, all the while having you do the "pick me" dance.

Find another outlet for your feelings, one that isn't him, and plan the rest of your wonderful life without him. I suspect you are going to end up very very angry with him, and bitter at the way he has treated you one way or another--you might as well get it over with now. \

I know you have a child together--limit contact with him to issues about your DC. If DC is at all ready for you to be away from them, do not be present at contact time. If DC isn't ready for that, do not engage with your XH while contact is occurring, and try to have contact somewhere other than the previous family home. It may be that you can get to a point where your relationship is more amicable, but for right now protect your own heart.