Long time lurker first time poster, looking for some advice. Recently seperated from my partner of 10 years, we have children, youngest is just one. Seperated over trust issues, he has done a lot of things to arouse suspicion but I've never had any evidence anything physical has happened and of course he denies. The thing is, I miss him so much, for all his faults I do still miss and love him. At first he was asking to come back and I said no however as the weeks passed I changed my mind but during that time, he changed his. I have begged him to come back and try, I dont want the children growing up with a weekend dad. I've asked him most days to try and every day I'm met with how he'll think about it. Last night, I decided that I would make a tinder account and low and behold he is on there!!! I honestly felt sick to my stomach, all along he has said there is no one else and he wants to be on his own and have time for him to figure things out. He's said he's not interested in being with anyone else, so then why on earth is he on there?! Just before the split he had started a new job and the guy he was working with was constantly texting him, I know that on two of those occosaions it was about girls he had met online and slept with. I asked why would he think it acceptable to send pictures of these girls to now ExP when he was in a relationship with me. Now my mind is in overdrive thinking his friend from work and him are in it together, picking up girls to sleep with. I feel sick and empty and just don't know what to do. He doesn't know that I know yet but is due to come and see the children later today. So, how do I handle this?! I honestly can't believe the man I thought I would spend my life with has done this.