Hi , I have been married for nearly 9 years and have instructed a solicitor for divorce, so far i haven't had enough courage to actually go ahead with it, I have son who I adore, but when H comes home from work the tension starts I can feel my son getting stressed and anxious, we haven't had a proper relationship H and Me for 6 yrs we don't even sleep in the same room anymore, he doesn't do anything with our son, he doesn't help around the house. My M'Law can be a right bitch and I know that when and If I start proceedings things at home are going to S.... . Apparently I have grounds for divorce but taking the first step towards the unknown is hard. We're suppossed to be going away on hols soon how am I going to get through that. I can't pretend anymore but I know nothing about how to start a new life as my son wants it to be just us.