Anyone else alone on NYE?

[BeauMirchoff]

Just really need someone to hold my hand tonight. He announced a few days ago he was leaving me. Our relationship has been shit and we don't get along (his words) because I've been nagging him to lay off the playstation and spend more time with me and the kids. Or help around the house. Tonight he is going out, just like that. It's not like he's just ended a relationship and broken my heart. It's just so cruel. We have 2 DC so obviously I won't be going anywhere. Not that I want to. I'll be sat on the sofa on my own, crying my eyes out.
Just please hold my hand and tell me it will get better and I won't feel like this forever!

Hi @BeauMirchoff

It was actually my dh that initiated the split about six weeks ago and he just moved out last week. He'd been unhappy for some time and I knew this, and I wasn't exactly happy either but I would never have called it. Both of us are to blame really - he drank too much and didn't treat me the way he should have done and also just constantly seemed to complain at me. I probably wasn't enough of a partner for him, I'm quite independent and like my own space and I used to distance myself from him especially when he'd had a drink but even when he hadn't I just didnt act the way he wanted me too.

I do/did love him but we'd been together since we were 17 and I think it perhaps had just become a habit.

But it's hit me hard as I never thought it would happen and I thought we would be together forever. I know he is already moving on and is developing a friendship with another woman which is hard to take.

But I will get there, and will be ok in the end and hope my kids will be too - they're 16 and 11 so older but the youngest especially is close to his dad so we've been making sure he's been around at his dad's new place as much as possible to spend time with him.

Take care xxx

Had a blazing row with STBXW earlier. Will be glad to see the back of her and am glad to be on my own.

Thank you all for your kind words. I've survived somehow. Drunk a bottle of wine and watched Netflix.
Sorry to hear that some of you are in the same boat as I am. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Never felt so helpless. But here's to a better, happier year. Let's shrug off that weight off our shoulders and move forward. Big hugs to everyone. Thank you for holding my hand tonight!