So I'm at that point so low I'm
On the internet looking for answers, I'm tired and drained and dreading life. I had to leave a very abusive man and go no contact I had to report breaches of his restraining order and now he will face the wrath of the courts. Meanwhile back at the ranch I'm
Here with no family no support and a 5 year old and a career I can barely
Manage to
Keep under these circumstances.. I'm pissed off with life as this same
Shit happened when I was 15
Years old and my daughter is now 20. I never get to be me
I don't know who me
Is I want to breath and live but I am
Always with a child - I adore him btw I just need the odd night out - his father has severed any relationship I had with anyone in his family and even ruined mine with my
Foster parents, friends say they will help and why didn't you ask?! But when you do they all busy!!! I feel like life is so dull and boring and I'm getting depressed. This poor kid needs me to be the world and I don't even have a patch of grass right now - shamed embarrassed lonely tired pissed off self loathing drained etc that's all I feel oh and safe as I moved from the violent ex... my life is shit and I don't want my son to grow up around a boring mum I need to find the spark I had before his father drowned me!! Help help in anyway reach out give me anything tips advice but don't dog me I do enough of that my own self!