I need your advice. I have been with my husband for 13 years and we have a 5yo DS. Things haven't been great between us for years, if I'm honest. DH has had a number of "emotional" affairs, one of which I found out about and confronted him with and this resulted in us going to Relate counselling. I know I am not entirely blameless in all of this. We've both had bouts of depression.... last year, when I was at rock bottom, I told him he would be better off without me and I said I would move out . In fact I have said this a number of times. He says he loves me and pleaded with me to stay. Nothings changed though. The love I once felt for him has gone and I don't think it will ever come back. We don't communicate, there is no affection, no intimacy. Sadly, I don't fancy him any more and I am not sure I even like him very much.
He is a wonderful Dad and does more than his fair share with our DS. I realise I am staying with him because of our DS and I don't want to split up the family, but I am unhappy. He is unhappy. I just don't know what to do! All I know is that I want to be on my own. I want to protect our DS and keep things as normal for him as possible.
The housing issue makes things difficult in that we live in London and we cannot afford to keep two homes. I want to move out, but don't want to leave my DS. I am feeling trapped and just don't know what to do for the best, that will minimise the hurt and disruption I am inevitably going to cause. Sorry for the rambling post... hope it all makes sense. Any suggestions or positive words will be gratefully received. Thanks all :-)