4 months on from my split, which I wanted having spent two years of intense trying to save our marriage. On paper he's my ideal man but post children it just didn't seem to work and we just couldn't work even though I could still see he was a good guy, we just couldn't connect and things had got worse and worse.
But what's eating me up night after night now is that, one month later he was seeing someone. I sensed then it was serious and he's gone on to be more serious. There was no relationship prior to the split I'm pretty sure but now he's totally besotted with her. He still sees the children but has to see her even then. So much so that the kids have met and been told about her much too soon for my liking.
I just can't believe it, I made it so easy for him, he treated me with disrespect and denial of any problems and made out they were all mine when I am pretty easy going and understanding and while I'm still adjusting and setting up home for my dcs he's found the love of his life.
I know you think I'm exaggerating and he's on the rebound but I know him and he's been very honest with me now. He isn't getting at me, he says, he thought I would be ok with it given that I moved out and believes I should move on too.
And why aren't I? Well I was married to him, still am for 10years with 3 dcs. I'm still grieving. My family don't even understand and still sympathise with him and have left me to it as it annoys me hearing their reaction and lack of understanding.
On a good moment I think that could be me with a love of my life, but mostly I am desperately sad and teary. I'm not sure what I expect on here. People have told me it will pass and things will get better and I know it will but I can't help thinking life will be much more of a struggle from now on.