Will keep this as brief as i can. Ive been married for 8 weeks and im miserable. Ive also been very stupid and met a guy on my hen and an on/off affair since, but he wants to work on his marriage so that is over. I did get feelings for him. So, ive been with OH for 9 yrs, he is 20yrs older than me. We fought hard with IVF and miscarriages to get our 2yr old. I love my husband but not in love.. i love him as my best friend. I dont like him touching me and our sexlife is non exsistant, as i dont want it with him. He is a very decent man, works hard, fantastic dad and loves the ground i walk on. But im so miserable. Im barely eating, drinking alot and have lost 6lbs this week alone. Im close to tears. So, what do i do, do i stay with him, for my son, in fear that i may stray again (note, ive never cheated before this) do i leave and make my son from a broken home? Is that selfish? I just dont know what to do.