Just that really-I have my first joint mediation session with h tomorrow. I have found out over the last three months that he is far from the person I thought him to be. He is very bullish but unfortunately very articulate and convincing. I am suffering with massive anxiety and having recently found out about his affair with my best friend am not in a good state at all.
We had previously agreed (between us-not legally ratified ) a rough financial settlement that I know believe-having found further information on his salary etc, to be unfair. He has accused me of lots of things but most hurtfully of exaggerating my reaction to the thing with my friend on purpose, (I suppose I have had a bit of a break down-have had to start taking medication for anxiety and depression-feel quite poorly), losing my job on purpose in order to somehow fleece him for money (I failed my probation as I was a huge mess following discovery of their affair on the morning I started my new job), and wanting to alter our agreement purely for revenge. None of those things are the case and I just feel weighed down by the whole thing.
Don't know why I'm posting really except for maybe a bit of a handhold. And I guess can anyone with experience tell me what their joint mediation sessions were like so I know what to expect?