Help!! I don't know what to do!

[Purplelisa]

I've been with my partner 10 years married two. I feel like he snaps at me talks to my like utter crap and it certainly isn't the love story I was hoping for. I think as I've grown up I've realised that getting married and having a family was a way for me to hide who I really am, I don't think I want to be with a man. Big mess I've created of my life though... We lost a child at 23weeks and went on to have three more closely together with my youngest being 2 and oldest 6... I feel trapped o don't work I don't have anything other than this family home, I'm struggling to keep all the pieces together now, I don't feel like I can talk to my friends because of what I've hidden all these years, I just do not know what to do 😢

Goodness. I have a friend who was in a very similar situation, he left his wife and children and chose to live the truth. After a lot of heart ache they are all in a better place, the children are happy and both parents have re married. Although the truth seems terrifying living a lie to keep other people happy with wear you down. Never leave for something that wouldn't be better than you already have. Your children will be happy and fine and will enjoy spending time with parents who are happy :)) sorry if this isn't what you wanted to hear. Good luck xxx

Reported Vals post as it's really not helpful.
I'm not sure I have anything too helpful to say but I really think you should find someone to talk to in rl.
There is no point in living your life being so unhappy, pretending to be someone you're not.