I split with my ex in June last year after nearly 6 years and two children. He had issues with his mental health and there had been episodes of domestic violence, only a few, while we were together. I left him and moved into a flat and our relationship became fairly amicable.
I am completely miserable. I hate being a single parent. He has the kids one night a week and thinks parenting is a breeze. He has moved on, got his life together, is seeing someone but denying it, living in the house we bought together and I paid thousands to decorate right before we split. On the outset it looks like our split was everything he needed and I'm left feeling like I was the problem. He was the violent one, he was the critical one but sometimes I really do think I was better off in the relationship than where I am now - which is totally alone and miserable. at least then I had company to eat with, someone to watch tv with, someone to help with the kids. Every time he sees me he is completely friendly and I want to punch him. Why couldn't he have been this nice when we were together? He has left me a shell of a person and now he gets to carry on with his wonderful life.
I'm probably going to get flamed for this but I don't even care, it can't make me any more miserable than I am now.