Hi all
I'm new to mumsnet, looking for a bit of friendly advice , support and direction with peoples own life experiences 
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My partner left a few months when our dd was 5 months, we have been together since our teens (first love), nearly 15 years. There have been problems, but things only got highlighted when I was pregnant.( which was planned) I am now in position of being a single mum and its daunting. He is now putting himself out there for new relationships and it hurts, I feel abandoned, rejected and lonely as my life companion and family life that i envisaged is gone. I am in a better place than I was but its still very raw. Sorting benefits is a mind field , but have written some stuff down and gone on benefits calculator, finances of course is a concern.
In writing this, I hope this will help me move on, as its so difficult as not a lot of people know, as don't want to be the focus of gossip, only nearest and dearest know and that is difficult.
I also hope this post helps people in similar situations, that your not alone (as I do feel that at times), its taken me a while to post this and I've done it