Hey everyone, I am a brand new poster but have read Mumsnet A LOT over the past 6 months for advice (it's been brill, when I've felt that I couldn't ask anyone else for advice). I am recently separated (6 months) and have a new partner. Well, he's not a new partner at all but a very old one; my first boyfriend who I don't think I ever quite got over (that's a whole other story) but things are starting to get to the serious stage, as you'd expect, given the past history, and I know, somewhere down the line, he will want children. He has always talked about this and would be an amazing Dad. We are both 36 but (unlike him) I have been married for 8 years and have two beautiful boys (5 and 4). I actually ended up with my ex because I accidentally got pregnant and (although I feel guilty for admitting this) I love being a mother but I do not want to go down that road again. The nappies and sleepless nights. I'm trying to claw some semblance of a life back. I don't even remember what it was like to be me anymore and I can't go back there. I don't want to string him on or hurt him as he is so emotionally invested but I know this issue is looming on the horizon. Does anyone have any similar experiences or advice? At a total loss. He makes me so happy and I want to make him happy but don't feel like I'm in position to in any way fulfil him. Thanks :) xx